Hello, how are you?
I am trying to be ok.
Where are you right now?
In my WG in 1190.
Which sounds surround you?
Birds chirping, church bells tolling, children playing. Quite idyllic. My neighbors get together every day at 19:00 and sing some traditional Austrian songs. Occasionally Ode to Joy.
Have you been productive so far? What are you working on?
I am working on sound design for Claire Lefevre’s solo performance for Brut Theatre about radical softness. I am also trying to finish two of my upcoming releases. We’ve been also working really hard to find ways to save Sounds Queer? but for now, we have to pause the project due to financial issues. But I spend 90% of my time bumping around. I just feel like staying sort of OK takes up most of my energy.
What inspires you right now?
Feelings of despair, anxiety but also trying to stay with vulnerability and fragility.
Reading material you can recommend?
I keep on coming back to this article. It really helps me to keep perspective.
I had a great honor to curate a series of podcasts for Oramics featuring emerging femme composers studying at the Sonology Institute in the Hague where I had a pleasure to study last year.
It is the kind of music I live for.
I watch so much crap you don’t even wanna know.
What’s your opinion on live-streams? You see any alternative ways to support the music community?
I did two streams, mostly because everything was organized for me and I got paid. Otherwise, I feel very overwhelmed with the amount of content, which is not sustainable. The Internet is it’s own medium and going live from your living room in a bathrobe is funny once, but it just doesn’t translate the experience of performing music.
What are you missing most? What are you afraid of?
I am paranoid that my career is over and I have no idea what to do next because there’s very little I can do that is not related to music.
What will change you think?
I have no idea. I feel there hasn’t been any space to grieve over what is lost, because we have been pressured to come up with instant solutions and distractions. I can’t even begin to comprehend what the damage is.
What is the gig or occasion you were most looking for, that was cancelled in this period?
I finally was accepted to an art residency of my dreams. And I was supposed to stay with my mom for a month. I haven’t seen my family since autumn.
Are you still able to pay your rent?
Yes, I have received some support and I am still able to get some jobs here and there. I feel fortunate, but I know it’s just a bandaid on a chopped arm. Or head.